קְדוֹשה, אני לא

אני לא יותר מאשר מה שאני, לא הזייה של אחרים, גם לא אשליה, אני לא מעניקה משמעות יתר לְמה  שגיליתי על עצמי עד כֹּה, אני לא קְדוֹשה 

אני סך כל חוויותיי, שיעורים והבנה, רואה את המציאות נְכוֹחה,  בשעת חישוב הנפש אני כנה ומליצת יושר, לא מחפשת לשבת על כס מְלוּכה 

 מאמינה בעצמי, לא מקדשת דבר, החיים הם מה שחושבים ומה שעושים איתם, עם כל הזכרונות והלקחים, החיים הם תמיד עכשיו
אין לי חשיבות מעל ומעבר, מה שתלמדו ממני זה רווח, וממה שאלמד מכם אצמח. החיים זה תן-וקח, יד רוחצת יד, שילוב והשפעה, חיוך ולטיפה, עידוד ותמיכה, וברגע אחד של קיום אין שווים יותר ושווים פחות, יש חיבור אחד של עולם פיסי, של תדרים ואנרגיה, ואור גדול שעוטף את הכל ומוביל אותנו נטולי קְדוּשה אל הפרק הבא 
  

Consciousness

Consciousness, what is it and what it means to us, human beings.
I've been asked in a web forum how do I explain something that is an abstract, something that is an idea, a word so many use but not all understand what it means.
This is my explanation to what Consciousness is for me, as it comes from years of practicing it and I'll try to simplify it, I hope I'll stick to this notion, and if you have questions please add them in the comments section below.
Consciousness is the knowledge of what I am . Contrary to awareness that it is knowing that I am, it's a step up in our development as there are levels of recognizing self and dealing with life situation s accordingly. Consciousness is about experiencing life, every moment of it, it's self-exploration created using our inner authority that was formed by life values that were shaped as a result of observing and analyzing reality that consists of who I am and the world around me. Consciousness is freedom, because the ability to study is always there and is not limited by the researcher's mind, the possibilities are infinite. Self-development that comes from within the inner authority intensifies the ability to cope with what the world holds for us, it certainly helps develop self-confidence and self-image which make us strong in our ability to fulfill ourselves.
When we break everything down to the basics we can explain from our experience, the terms we use have meaning, same thing we are looking for when walking on our life path. Consciousness helps giving the meaning that is right for us.

דוברובניק

עיר עתיקה, רצפת אבן מלוטשת, חומות מלאות הוד, קירות מעוטרים עדינים מרהיבים לעין בוחנת. הסטוריה שקטה מביטה מכל עבר מתמזגת עם העכשיו ברגע ארוך הנמתח כנצח. מנגינת אנשים פוסעים עולה מרצפת אבן מבהיקה מקרני שמש, משתאים הם לנוכח תפארתה של עיר עתיקה המוקפת בהרים ירוקים, שמים תכולים וענן נושק מגדל המשקיף על רחוב שליו שוקק אדם.

מדרגות יורדות אל עבר גגות אדומים, בתים פרושים על מדרון של הר, תריסים פתוחים אל אור של שמש, סמטא צרה נפתחת לעוד סמטא צרה המובילה לחוף ים רגוע של גלים מרצדים ברוח, ואני שם בעיני רוחי, כמעט נוגעת בחומות מלאות הוד, כמעט פוסעת על אבנים מבהיקות, משרטטת בקולמוס משאלה חוויה של עיר עתיקה, קסומה ומלבבת.   

Frenchie, my love.

A tear of sadness escaped my eye, rolled down my cheek, dropped quietly to the ground. Holding memories of friendship and love it shined, as sun embraced it the tear continued to roll. Deep down into the earth it went, through darkness and uncertainty it run then finally stopped. From all directions came holding shards of light, little creatures of magic, gathering around. They gently touched the tear with their magical hand, the place suddenly was filled with bright light and hope, and through eternity a voice was heard: "We never really die, you know, we always live in the heart and mind of those we loved"

סופה שקטה

סופה שקטה, לתומה כך עברה, דפי ספר תלשה, קורות חיי פזורים לכל עבר, חשופים לחסדי זרים

 חלומות לא ברורים נפקחים אל בקרים טומני סוד, החזון מתפוגג לתוך ימים נמתחים ארוכים וקרים

סימני שאלה מתאגדים, מביטות עיניים אל אופק רחוק, שמים מכוסים בעננים  נפגשים במים אחרים
 באבחת כנף לא נראית רוח הזמן חלפה, ליטפה, העירה, הזכירה רגעים לא נעימים של מילים ופנים מנוכרים
ואני עומדת נטועה למציאות כעץ עתיק השואף עוד אל השמש, שבעת ימים והרפתקאות. ענפיי ארוכים, נשלחים לעבר סופה שקטה, כותבים עוד דפים בספר חיים שקורים מוזרים אך מוכרים 

Calrify change

"You don't start over, you continue but with a different way of looking at things", I told her.
She stared back at me from the mirror: "Would you change anything as a result?" She asked.
 "I would re-focus on my journey, and use life circumstances to grow even more. It's called evolving, it is not a change".
"Will you have the strength to walk on that path alone?" She asked me.
 "I always have, people I met left impressions, they left me with a lesson learned. their path crossed mine but they were heading elsewhere. My strength comes from the knowledge that derives  from self realization. Strength is self confidence, it's self esteem that feeds of honesty".
"I'm amazed of how peaceful the moment is, like nothing else exists right now that could spoil your mood".
"It's what I want it to be now. Later will be reshaped by the way I perceive reality, and based on my newly discovered insights, I might continue not knowing what's next but won't afraid to meet my tomorrow" .
 "We don't start over, we keep on going carrying everything that we are into the next moment". She said, that face in the mirror.
"Yes! " I told myself. "We learn and we grow, that's what we do"

Be specific

There's no a bit of love, not such a thing of tons of love.
You either love, or you don't.
There's no partial truth, there's not extra of it.
You either tell the truth, or you don't.
There's no life that is outside yourself, there's also no duality.
You either accept that life is what you are, or you don't know what you're talking about.
There's not such a thing self love without knowing self, and it's impossible to love others without knowing them.
Using the word "Love" does not make it happen, no matter how many times you repeat it. A lie does not become truth just because you think so.
In a world where we suppose to communicate to the best of our ability in order to be considered good human beings we need to be accurate with our words, and we need to be honest about it all. Accuracy can be achieved by talking from experience, from learning as well.
by itself, wanting to be with someone does not make relationship work, it is just the beginning.
Painting a picture that has one layer of pretty paint that hides behind it layers of deceit does not make imagination a reality.
There can be no love where lies reside, there can be no growth where honesty does not prevail.
Friendship is when we agree to use each other, if you're taking advantage of someone, you're not a friend.
Knowing people weaknesses makes you strong only when you're there to help them, when you're benefiting from their inability to cope with their problems, you become another obstacle in their way to realize themselves.
Being free is always from something. If you're operating from outer authority, you're a slave.
Self fulfilment is not self realization. Enjoying self is momentary, discovering self is a lifelong journey. You can not get lost in shallow waters, realizing self requires diving deep into our soul, exploring every hidden place we find when we shine the light of our existence upon it.
People that don't know what love is, because they don't know themselves, people that lie, that take advantage of you, people that are hiding behind walls of deception, those people cannot and will not teach you how to be better you.
There you are, stripped from what matters the most, standing there in the corner of gloomy reality, between Stubbornness Ave and Careless Boulevard selling your soul in pieces just to enjoy a brief moment of recognition from those who are not your friends.